26 April 2011

tired

其實我是不是該放棄,
有人問,這麼容易就放棄啊?
很辛苦,卻不能得到平衡。
要怎麼辦?
有時候我真的不知道,
我來到這世界上,
其實,是不是個錯誤的開始。
我緊張“他”,我愛他,我害怕失去他,
所以我時時刻刻緊守在身邊!
我們好好的,但是,我一不在,你馬上就變了個人,
我辛苦的很,我還是不能放下,
我還是很執著的享用我的方式去留你在身邊,
沒見到你,我好想你,
但是沒見到你,
你就不是那樣的對我,
只好選擇在你身邊看著你。
所以,我忽略了“她”,
他為我辛苦著,
為我擔心,為我哭,
我心疼得很,
我想要保護她,
可是我意志堅強不起來,
因為我也很愛“他” ...
他失望了又失望,
其實我也很難受,
可是當我回去后,
我和他又會出現問題!!!
我根本平衡不了!!! 並沒有人知道!!!
我真的很累,
我不能對他說 她很辛苦,你能不能不要每一次我不在的時候就改變態度,
我也不能對她說 他每次我不在的時候,就變了態度 可不可以原諒我把它看得這麼重要!!!
兩者之間,並沒有一方是 知道其實 我想來想去 最後受傷難過的還是我。

15 April 2011

disappointed ...

I really disappointed in u ...
what you do to me ?
"pillow talk" ?
now i thk it is very funny thg ...
what we talk that day ...
all you already forgot ...
all changed rubbish ...
i hate your changed ,
the start ,
i can feel and i know i`m ur princess ,
i`m happiness ,
becoz i`m in love with a very very considerate man ...
very enchanted , i meet u ... and lucky to got u ...
but now ,
why you changed ?
where ur considerate ?
i love you ...even u do any thg making me sad ,
make me cry ... make me confuse ...
that cant be reason let me to say out i dun love you ...
but this time ,
i`m really disappointed ...

06 April 2011

sunday (3-4-2011)

SUNDAY was his father birthday ...
morning we go IKEA buy the funiture ...
(for my babi`s new room)
his father fetch we ...
IKEA damn big ...
walk till my leg sore ...
the already 4 hour passed ...
babi still have finish choosing his bad accessories ...
his daddy also pek chek dy ...
at 5.30 we just back home ...
rest awile ...
his father back home ...
changing a new look ...
and that night we celebrate his father birthday at "香港酒家"...
that cuisine so delicious ...hmm...
then his fathar pour a glass of red wine to me ...
hehe ... but , this red wine smell so strong ...
feel like difficult to drink~
yuk ~ really difficult to drink ...
so i faster finish the 1st cup ...
suddently , his "a yi " pour another cup for me @.@
oh ~ my god !!! stunned !!!
i saw his father already drunk ... haha ~
i also start feel faint and hot ...
then his father toast to me ...
aikss ... so means must drink ~ alamak ...
me also want drunk dy ... blur blur ~~~~~
finally ... i drunk ~ hahahaha ~
Monday ... 4.4.2011
1st time painting the wall ...
oh ... "hou hou gao" ... coz 1st time mah ...
haha ~
my babi ...so cham ...
i 6am already go sleep ...
babi he do til 10am ... (poor babi , wiffy sek fan ~)
but the chat not enough ...
so must wait his "ah yi" help him to buy the polish...
LAZY to continue ...
so stop here lar ...
babi ~ wiffy love u ... ~